“These boots pinch me!”
“Here are the others.”
“Bring a cord for my emergency-lamp.”
She looked at him, set to rights the last flaw in his armor; all fell into place.
“You look splendid.”
Then she noticed that he was carefully brushing his hair.
“For the benefit of the stars?” she ques??tioned.
“I don't want to feel old.”
“I'm jealous.”
He laughed again and kissed her, pressing her to his heavy garments. Then he lifted her from the ground between his outstretched arms like a little girl, and laughing still, de??posited her on the bed.
“Go to sleep!”
He shut the door behind him and passing amongst the indistinguishable folk of night, took the first step toward his conquests.
She remained, sadly looking at these flowers and books, little friendly things which meant for him no more than the bottom of the sea.
chapter eleven
Rivière Greeted Him.
Rivière greeted him.
“That's a nice trick you played on me, your last trip! You turned back though the weather reports were good. You could have pushed through all right. Get the wind up?”
Surprised, the pilot found no answer. He slowly rubbed his hands one on the other. Then, raising his head, he looked Rivière in the eyes.
“Yes,” he answered.
Deep in himself Rivière felt sorry for this brave fellow who had been afraid. The pilot tried to explain.
“I couldn't see a thing. No doubt, further on 。 。 。 perhaps 。 。 。 the radio said. 。 。 。 But my lamp was getting weak and I couldn't see my hands. I tried turning on my flying-light so as to spot a wing anyhow, but I saw nothing. It was like being at the bottom of a huge pit, and no getting out of it. Then my engine started a rattle.”
“No.”
“No?”
“No, we had a look at it. In perfect order. But a man always thinks the engine's rattling when he gets the wind up.”
“And who wouldn't? The mountains were above me. When I tried to climb I got caught in heavy squalls When one can't see a damned thing, squalls, you know. 。 。 。 In??stead of climbing I lost three hundred feet or more. I couldn't even see the gyroscope or the manometers. It struck me that the engine was running badly and heating up, and the oil-pressure was going down. And it was dark as a plague of Egypt. Damned glad I was to see the lights of a town again.”
“You've too much imagination. That's what it is.”
The pilot left him.
Rivière sank back into the arm-chair and ran his fingers through his grizzled hair.
The pluckiest of my men, he thought. It was a fine thing he did that night, but I've stopped him from being afraid.
He felt a mood of weakness coming over him again.
To make oneself beloved one need only show pity. I show little pity, or I hide it. Sure enough it would be fine to create friendships and human kindness around me. A doctor can enjoy that in the course of his profession. But I'm the servant of events and, to make others serve them too, I've got to temper my men like steel. That dark necessity is with me every night when I read over the flight reports. If I am slack and let events take charge, trusting to routine, always mysteri??ously something seems to happen. It is as if my will alone forbade the plane in flight from breaking or the storm to hold the mail up. My power sometimes amazes me.
His thoughts flowed on.
Simple enough, perhaps. Like a gardener's endless labor on his lawn; the mere pressure of his hand drives back into the soil the virgin forest which the earth will engender time and time again.
His thoughts turned to the pilot.
I am saving him from fear. I was not at??tacking him but, across him, that stubborn inertia which paralyzes men who face the un??known. If I listen and sympathize, if I take his adventure seriously, he will fancy he is returning from a land of mystery, and mystery alone is at the root of fear. We must do away with mystery. Men who have gone down into the pit of darkness must come up and say — there's nothing in it! This man must enter the inmost heart of night, that clotted dark??ness, without even his little miner's davy, whose light, falling only on a hand or wing, suffices to push the unknown a shoulder's breadth away.
Yet, a silent communion, deep within them, united Rivière and his pilots in the battle. All were like shipmates, sharing a com??mon will to victory.
Rivière remembered other battles he had joined to conquer night. In official circles darkness was dreaded as a desert unexplored. The idea of launching a craft at a hundred and fifty miles an hour against the storm and mists and all the solid obstacles night veils in darkness might suit the military arm; you leave on a fine night, drop bombs and return to your starting-point. But regular night-serv??ices were doomed to fail. “It's a matter of life and death,” said Rivière, “for the lead we gain by day on ships and railways is lost each night.”
Disgusted, he had heard them prate of balance-sheets, insurance and, above all, pub??lic opinion. “Public opinion!” he exclaimed. “The public does as it's told!” But it was all waste of time, he was saying to himself.
There's something far above all that. A living thing forces its way through, makes its own laws to live by and nothing can resist it. Rivière had no notion when or how commercial aviation would tackle the problem of night-flying but its inevitable solution must be pre??pared for.
Those green table-cloths over which he had leaned, his chin propped on his arm, well he remembered them! And his feeling of power as he heard the others‘ quibbles! Futile these had seemed, doomed from the outset by the force of life. He felt the weight of energy that gathered in him. And I shall win, thought Rivière, for the weight of argument is on my side. That is the natural trend of things. They urged him to propose a utopian scheme, de??void of every risk. ”Experience will guide us to the rules,” he said. “You cannot make rules precede practical experience.”
After a hard year's struggle, Rivière got his way. “His faith saw him through,” said some, but others: “No, his tenacity. Why, the fel??low's as obstinate as a bear!” But Rivière put his success down to the fact that he had lent his weight to the better cause.
Safety first was the obsession of those early days. Planes were to leave only an hour before dawn, to land only an hour after sunset. When Rivière felt surer of his ground, then and only then did he venture to send his planes into the depth of night. And now, with few to back him, disowned by nearly all, he plowed a lonely furrow.
Rivière rang up to learn the latest messages from the planes in flight.
chapter twelve
Now The Patagonia Mail Was Entering The Storm —
Now the Patagonia mail was entering the storm and Fabien abandoned all idea of cir??cumventing it; it was too widespread for that, he reckoned, for the vista of lightning-flashes led far inland, exposing battlement on battle??ment of clouds. He decided to try passing be??low it, ready to beat a retreat if things took a bad turn.
He read his altitude, five thousand five hundred feet, and pressed the controls with his palms to bring it down. The engine started thudding violently, setting all the plane aquiver. Fabien corrected the gliding angle approximately, verifying on the map the height of the hills, some sixteen hundred feet. To keep a safety margin he determined to fly at a trifle above two thousand, staking his altitude as a gambler risks his fortune.
An eddy dragged him down, making the plane tremble still more harshly and he felt the threat of unseen avalanches that toppled all about him. He dreamt an instant of retreat and its guerdon of a hundred thousand stars, but did not shift his course by one degree.
Fabien weighed his chances; probably this was just a local storm, as Trelew, the next halt, was signaling a sky only three-quarters overcast. A bare twenty minutes more of solid murk and he would be through with it. Nevertheless the pilot felt uneasy. Leaning to his left, to windward, he sought to catch those vague gleams which, even in darkest night, flit here and there. But even those vagrant gleams were gone; at most there lingered patches in the mass of shadow where the night seemed less opaque, or was it only that his eyes were growing strained?
The wireless operator handed him a slip of paper.
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